Day Two: Commitment Remorse

Ahhh...what have I gotten myself into?  I couldn't sleep last night worrying over this crazy commitment.  What am I going to write about?  What kind of blog will this be?  Will it be a food blog (my favorites)?  A homeschool blog (scarey)?  A "Proverbs 31 Woman" blog (yeah, right.)?  I love blogs.  They all sound so positive.  People's lives sound fun.  They make beautiful meals, take beautiful pictures and have perfect kids.  They are organized and efficient...

Let's see.  Should I write about our meltdown in math yesterday?  How about my mediocre chicken pot pie last night? I actually took a picture of the pot pie thinking that's what you do when you write a blog.  Haha!  How about my need to detox from Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas...another "resolution" that has yet to be started?  Or maybe I should go with the fact that I am still on Dec. 8 of my "Read through the Bible plan" from last year.  How in the world can you get through Romans in four days?

I will probably write about all those subjects in the coming days.  But I have a problem.

I have a desperate need to confess all my weaknesses.  This characteristic comes out of a past (and present) of fighting pride in my life.  Why would I want to write for 30 days straight when there is a compulsory need to confess all the time?  (Insert hands shaking, upset stomach, etc.)  This will be an experiment in humiliation.

But my Jesus reminds me, "My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness.  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that Christ's power may rest on me.  That is why for Christ's sake I delight in weaknesses...for when I am weak then I am strong."

Sigh.  I can do that.  I can delight in weaknesses.  I can rest in Him.  I can walk through meltdowns with Him.  I can laugh at my need to please you all with a picture of my pot pie.  I CAN detox and eat healthy real foods because I want to please Him.  I want to honor His temple, my body.  And best of all I am free from dates on reading plans because I want to spend time with Him, soaking in His words to me.

What about you?  Do you feel a need to put your best foot forward all the time?  My Jesus' kingdom is all upside down and backwards.  The first will be last, love your enemies and boast in your weaknesses.  Crazy.  But I want to be near Him.  I want to know Him and I have found that these crazy upside down ideas actually set me free to walk with Him more intimately.

Love from the islands,
Twyla

P.S.  Do you like the new font?  Much easier to read.  :)